foreverfriends

cme project

2006-09-09T14:07:00.000+08:00

hahaha... amanda annd jian yun annd diyana are all here.. jian yun has jest finished playing on e piano annd diyana annd amanda i dunno they doing wat... i dunnoe wat to blog, so jian yun shall blog for me ...
JY: haha.. someone was on the fone with u noe hu just now while we were waiting for the food to come.. haha.. thn the mac person come le still dun wan hang.. so lovey dovey... haha... talk on the fone and ingore us.. hmph.. haha.. eh jr. come read tis fantastic blog eh.. got my marvlous post here.. hahax.. hmm nothing much to sae le.. let panda take over..
amanda**(nt panda): yupp yupp. we are so oooo HURT big time... lalalalas. nxt time, call when we nort arnd kae?den u all can... w/o us interupting euu all ya? ok... upon koon lay's request... ii shall blog bout other stuff other than... koon lay... iish sooo nice tuu gibb us this mac treat yea? thx koon lay!! yupp. n let me introduce tuu u all... DIYANA... the greedy greedy girl... hu wanted to eat pizza hut lahx... ppl treat only wan eat alort alort alort... ok... she shall take over...
diyana: wei! not my fault.. ppl treat muz be thankful.. n not waste the good food unlike some ppl call jian yun n amanda!! ahah!!(amanda:ya... rite??!!).. im so ryt!

its time ffer us tuu seriously start our project...
byeeeeee....!!

HAHA

2006-09-08T16:47:00.000+08:00

seems like i'm a primitive nowadays... banned frm e com... can u believe it?? arrrgh, it seems like soooo long since i din blog and i have e blogger's block. serious, i DONT NOE wat to write!! arrrrgh. except tat i missed e k box thingy wit cello bass annd brenda's bdayy annd e bbq, which is nicee, hahaha, i like. ((: tat's abt it... will uppdate, if i can...

??

2006-08-07T21:29:00.000+08:00

this is still bothering me... annd i hope i shall nort get all too emotional abt it... as some of you might noe wat it is,, i cant help it but think... under such circumstances... wat if we had frozen? instead of like normal pple, who will evaporate? gosh, we haven even got to tat stage yet.. will we last? ...

this SUX.

2006-08-01T20:07:00.000+08:00

life has..

SUCKED,,

big time

for those who visit this blog, i won't be blogging much later, as in , nort alot of times as before, which, was.... a torture, literally. cos of e password prob, again. annd as much as i hate to admit, everything just... sucked. BIG DEAL.

dlohymdnah..niaga?

go away

2006-06-30T14:39:00.000+08:00

this is really tiring,,

when you are like obviously so sick of evrything annd dun give a damn abt going home

but you cant

and you cant help it when you are upset cos you'd be giving a stoopid kind of face and yet everyone expects you to SMILE when in fact you are feeling like shit

wat the fuck.

yesyes i wld be using vulgarities todayy

.....wat am i supposed to do? i am nort a faker who can smile as it is

watifhegivesupp?orworse,watifitisme?

this is crazy

2006-06-21T17:18:00.000+08:00

*head spinning* (muttering) my ex pe cher is my eng cher, aka form cher...

i cant go for bbq... arrgh.

held hands

2006-06-20T19:04:00.000+08:00

wahaahahs. went to Changi airport todayy cos it started to rain annd we couldn't go to East Coast... hahaha... played wit the skytrain and bo liao travelled a few times back and forth in it.. until okk i decided i felt guilty cos we were like occupying space and some pple couldn't use it and tat's being selfish... lolss. went to eat before going to watch planes fly. there were few planes tat dayy annd in e end jest sat down to talk and talk and talk... listened to mp3 e kiss goodbye repeated and repeated alort of times... haha. we stayed for... one and a half hrs... i love love tat place!! shall go dere often... hahaha. stayed at Changi e whole dayy before he pei wo take mrt till cityhall,,

let's just sayy... i'm v happy todayy,

EAST COAST!!

2006-06-19T11:51:00.000+08:00

sososo~~ i guess it is east coast tmr ferr me, tell me i am happy pls pls pls, hahaha yahh. ((:

HAPPY,, yes you are happy..

when's e class party?? i noe lahh!! 22nd?!!!

and sooooo, no co todayy?? thurs?? gawd, whinch means i din go for co e whole mth?? hehehe.

hehs,, cos arh hong kong annd all... bwahaahahs. but but i missed my cello!!

hope dun need to change, cos i had sort of grown on it... hahaahahs..

missed out e concert, TOO BAD!! had wanted to go noe??!! buteur... no tickets?? yst... noooooo!!! nvrm, annd wat?? wld have some kind of negative effect on my ccas' points?? urrrrgh.

PFFITT~~!!

i lurrve Maydaaaaaaayyyy!!!

sayy i am crazy, puleeeese.

blablablabla.. *peek a boo*

wakakakakakas i am stupid,,

pops bubbles teehee

2006-06-15T15:14:00.000+08:00

hmm hmm,,

i shall call him.. 1o.20,,

hurrhurrhurr.

ISPLS FINISHED~~!!

1) e-math
2) english
3) chemistry
4) physics
5) lit

muahaha. i dunno inverse matrix, in a math... have no idea how to do e 'lun zheng wen' ferr chinese... annd annd e cha guan project!! raahh raahh raahh. ARRRRGH, lost my ss textbook.. how to do summary lehh?? hohoho. some more.. gort wat huh? nooooooooo.... lalala~ jest saw gong dai in west mall... funny lah. e hair style till like just woke upp.. hahaha. cute. =X

...............

finally, finally i said it... feels as if.. i dun have anything to hide lerr.. these days..trying to keep... but... mayb saying lerr would be a good thing after all... i hope.

depressed

2006-06-10T10:12:00.000+08:00

there must be sth wrong wit me...

depressed... again? darn. i feel as if... there is... something missing.. missing missing missing... nvr to be found again... let's make everything stay the same it used to be... please? .......... started imagining things... raaahh. away away annd away...

drunk to be asleep... holidays, again. it's esp harder nw i think. no one is ready to move on, not yet.. or,..... yes? ......... leave me out? sighh. one of those emotional thoughts, once again, yet again.

i'm an advocating artist... am imaginative, very high empathy annd blaah blaah. 96% empathy and 94% feminity... 2% confidence and 0% masculinity.. wahahahaahs. hmm does that mean... i am... very WEN ROU? harharhar.

*ooops* got carried away a little... i am xiao nu ren... ns, you too. wake upp bah, stop it you are xiao nu ren... nort DA NU REN can?! wahaahahs telling euu here... ........................i think i can force myself to smile.

(:

TADAA~~

2006-06-09T19:12:00.000+08:00

let's just sayy... the reason i decided to blog two times todayy ish cos..i was listening over annd over again,, N times the "it started wit a kiss" songs annd i feel.... sho... in love? mwahaha.

ohh i went to A math remedial all wet, ran in tat darned rain.. hehee. and then was freezing inside the classrm, until jian yun raised tat logical reasoning that mayb i shld dry myself... arrgh. i am one happy happy gurl?? lolss. never felt so happy...for a very very long time lerr ba... anywhere is fine wit me... wo ai ni? i love you? aiishiteru? sarang heyo? ............ ever wondered how to say i love you in every language in the world? i shall go find out. hahas. simple enough...

first...time? (:

2006-06-09T16:47:00.000+08:00

**************

STARS. TEEHEE.

first time? lolss. i guess sho. the library? hahaahs.

walked around... ultraman~~!! annd annd reminds me i used to lurve sailormoon.. heyy they were hot.. and power ranger.. raahh. i don't noe. not boring..nopex. (: i think. but... mayb i am e one being boring? hurrhurr. sighh. tried mos burger for e first time!! gawd, i never dared to try it.. cos wit the horrrible pictures they put outside their shop annd all... it's quite good actually. smaller burger, more expensive yes yes, but they have fatter fries wit less salt..yummy. was not very hungry soooo...din finish anything. not the drink, not the burger...not the fries. next time would just have the fries will do..

the omen? (:

ooooohhhhh yar and i hate hate hate myself for missing out on the annual dinner!! sounds super fun laahh... haiish.

IKEA. MUAHAHA.

2006-05-30T11:40:00.000+08:00

so...yesterday!!

hmmm yesterday..hehe. start frm where lehh?? .....

okies walked to west mall to wait ferr jianyun... then evon...took mrt annd then go Queestown derer to see e class teeeee~~~~ weehees. aniwae, we jest walk walk lo,, think e cheapest price ish... $$18...baaaaa... ryte? harhar. sooooon. we gt bored while waiting at one of e shops... jian yun tat weirdo person.... lurve Ikea sooooooo much. yesh yesh, THE Ikea. bwahaahahs. mayb it's the um yellow?! lolss. (: we walked in lahh... think all e pple staring...they all go there buy furniture...wo men ne?? dunno. jian yun likes sofas sho much she sat on almost every single one there is in the shop.! i think. hahaha. I AM CRAZEEEEEE~~~!! super duper high yesterday... while at ikea. i saw LACES!! laces laces laces... annd latin books? or wat. dunno wat language, lahh. e boss must be tat kind of country the pple. hehs. comes e BESTEST part...

*drum rolls* jian yun got freaked out by a kid hiding in a closet! rlly, this ish e kind of you-have-to-be-there kind of jokes... kids nowadays.. are very mature.. *shakes head* SIGHH. loooooooooong story.... RAAHH. went to e kids' corner... big toothbrushes... big big de shaver... lalalalala~~~ saw my real face lerr bahh....hahaha.. Ikea is...big? hehex. walked to find exit...

ONE-HR TRIP IN IKEA. (((((:

DARN

2006-05-29T10:09:00.000+08:00

i dunno...you seriously cant blame me if i am feeling nervous... ryte?

i think..

first love

2006-05-25T18:42:00.000+08:00

todayy...is a raining dayy..i like e staircase...i like it dere. esp when it rains<< size="1">inhim. knocked my head on tat stoopid wall todayy and walked around looking like an idiot wit that freaking thing on my head... great. fire drill just has had to happen TODAYY, for goodness sake. wth. wo jiu shi si yao mian zi, zen yang?? x-men is boring, dun tat wolverine guy's hand bleed with all tat sharp things poking out of his knuckles?? okk watever. ...................amibeingtoosensitive?wasiwrongtontbelieve?iwannto,really.sorry.

wtf

2006-05-23T17:52:00.000+08:00

WAT THE HELL,,

i don't noe wat i said, did, todayy.

i just messed upp e whole dayy...

wth wth wth wth wth wth wth wth wth wth wth wth wth wth wth wth

i just tot.. wat i said.. nervousness?

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHH.

love?

2006-05-21T15:12:00.000+08:00

i am shocked,,

why am i...waiting?

contradicting...

ren mahh..

who can i tell this too..nt as if they'd understand. hoho,

i'd just sound stupid, and too embarrassing to say

aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh.

let e whole world noe... NORT. ((((:

.................................

love??

hurrhurrhurr.

wat are we doing tmr ne..?

i........like you.

JUNE.

2006-05-20T11:21:00.000+08:00

first time in history, the june hols wld suck, i think. ISPL, yikes. annd annd nt being to perform?? stoopid. although money is nice, but...they are nt mine aniwae?! am gonna miss out all e fun, wit shu feng they all...i'd been practicing for sooooo long, just for THIS. wtf. and some more e operation... arrrrrrgh. haediwqerrfgfewrheslfkoqw[eqrlgiwerherOPREFHERGWEwjehrweroldfiweiorjfuwlrqporfnvkjjfhekkljwe

tell me abt it.!

WO SHI ZHU

2006-05-15T19:11:00.000+08:00

I ACTED STUPID TODAYY.

guess why?

.....

i am not telling.

sighh.

WO. SHI. ZHU.

SHUT UPP.

ihateyouikoveyouijustcannotrmbtoforgetyou

it'sabtyou,it'sabtme,

makeuppmymind...

makeuppmymind

idied

makeuppmymind,itsconfusing.won'tdomeanygood

it started wit a kiss

2006-05-14T18:07:00.000+08:00

watched my favourite show e whole dayy todayy... i noe..i jest wanna get inside and live there forever...they all seemed so happie..not like in the reality.. even for xiang qin...at least...zhi shu likes her ahh...not like me...somehow, i feel as if i was the idiot here all over again, saying things i shouldn't be saying, doing things i wasn't suppsed to be doing, and thinking...things i shouldn't be thinking... AT ALL. it'd just turn out to be a joke anyway, like things always turn out for me. it's tiring. tomorrow, there'd be post-exam activities.... sewing sucks, at least for me. big chance for the whole class to noe wat a freak i am, unable to sew even a simple toy. and find out that really i'm just stupid and clumsy... and make a fool of myself. great. somehow... why give me the wrong idea? when it wasn't even true? or is it i am the one who thinks too much?

totally complicated

2006-05-12T15:11:00.000+08:00

have you ever wondered, why did the wolrd turned out to be so complicated? i thought it was already very complicated, to the extent, and yet, ever since this year started, it's getting more and more of a problem. i was braver than i thought i could be. i got to know more people, more things. that was when i realised how scary humans could be and how cruel life is. never, ever, judge how a person is when you barely noe him or her. i know very, very well that it is not mood swings. i am clear of wat i am doing and thinking and feeling, which is all wrong. how could i be so evil? i know of someone, who lost faith in love, and yet. since when did e pple around me became like this? or wasi just too ignorant, of not realising wat was going on around me? i could still stay happy, be brave.

*wo bu wan ai mei, ke shi ai mei que wan wo dao di

=SECRET= SHHHH~~~~

2006-05-05T12:28:00.000+08:00

this time... i'm worried... cos... this e first time i experienced this kinds of thing... if i ever got over this... during this one and a half years... then... good luck to me ba!! only one person noes... learnt enough not to say trust pple that much after all... like, not trust. or shld i sayy... tell. why does all these kind of stupid thing happen to me? sorry... * wo bu shi gu yi de... is this guilt? cos i noe i'm not supposed to feel this wayy... worrying. sadness always comes after hope and happiness...

looking to over SA1 though!! LEFT ONLY A MATH AND CHEM!! my worst subjets... *sian diao* then gort two days free!! muahahaha. wednesday... doctor appointment... shiet. at least let e doctor to be shuai lar... haiz. okk nvrmind i ever said that. doctors, aren't meant to be that wayy.

AFTER EXAMS I CAN

1) go shopping!!! money i need MONEY!!!! $$$$$$

2) PEI LING!! GO EAT WIT EUU!! hahaas. (:

3) ermm... not study for 2 weeks!! bwahaaahahs.

4) watch kang xi lai le!! xiao s!!

5) get my mp3. yayy.

6) sleeep e whole dayy

7) wait for my results. * bite nails and pulls hair* arrrrgh.

8) take neos!!

9) date with miss foo and sj and tys annd and ber.! lala. XD

10) ....... find some ways to get RICH. *bling bling*

11) watch e zuo ju @ ns's hse!!! haha. YAYY.

wake me upp if i dropped too far in and pull me out.

2006-05-03T13:59:00.000+08:00

today...

had lit test...

i did e prose..

love=hate?

the woman killed her husband...

with a lamb leg...

moral of e story: marry a vegetarian...

jin tian wo de xin qing... zhen de hao cha hao cha oooo...

somebody entertain me please...

haiz...

failure...

dunnoe how to do e Macbeth second qns... it's rubbish...

*lian*

i should be angry....

2006-05-02T16:48:00.000+08:00

physics paper sucks... wei shen me e whole world only i sho stoopid ne... nt happy le lahh... now... very bu kai xinn lerr...

very scared of chemistry...

....................

2006-04-29T19:48:00.000+08:00

ii think... i am too embarrassed and diu lian lerr... how to live for e next one and a half years??! let's hope... that... "" does not noe.., bu ran... you all have e right to just murder me....

2006-04-27T14:11:00.000+08:00

todayy i couldn't stop thinking abt all those bad stuffies.. like, hell, i noe i wasn't supposed to cos we are very very close, and i MUST trust you all. insecurities, i think. or pure stupidness, or just pessimistic. but everyone noes that there is something that's already turned different already...we all do. dun feel like eating out so took e bus wit Evon today and somehow, i managed to tell her wat i think all along... maybe it's because we think alike ba! i think. cos even if i told some one else... they might not understand. heyyheyy. we must all stay happy!! we can make it thru de!! i noe!! however bad things are, i still can make it!! jia youu! *lolss dun mind me cos i dunno wat's this? a cheering on myself on campaign? HAHA.*

2006-04-26T17:42:00.000+08:00

i am falling hard. sometimes i can't even wat is so nice about me? why are all the pple around me so happy? i was a few days ago, when i just found out, i guess. but... I DON'T KNOW LA. just feel like wat. lately when i'm upset i'd just listen to the soundtracks frm it started wit a kiss... the songs used to cheer me upp and i noe i wld like to be like Xiang Qin. be happy. but not today, when i fell. i don't think i am good enough.

2006-04-24T18:07:00.000+08:00

i guess... i am one of the lucky few. i guess. if i were the person i was last year, i'd be estactic. maybe. but am i really happy now?

HOW????

2006-04-22T10:59:00.000+08:00

was very confused... die le la..how.. it's true...dun need to wait until end of year... darn. have exactly the same thinking wit Gracia! thanx for all e sms-es. (: things will turn out okk!! i know!! please, it must. HAIZ. am i supposed to be happy?? i noe..i am just confused... it's not normal. abnormal. and at this time too~~!!! GOD HELP ME!!!!! JIU MING!!!

WO XIANG WO HUI KAI SHI XIANG NIAN NI, KE SHI WO CAI GANG GANG YU JIAN LE NI...

TIAN AHH!!!!

WO XI HUAN NI!!!

2006-04-20T18:12:00.000+08:00

today... co practice was freaking tiring... we just kept on practising and practising for the annual awards where everyone just eats and..well, when you're eating, you dun really have time for music, right? *think those pple whom play the violin or piano when you dine in a high-class restaurant...* same case. so. today's the second last day the seniors are practising with us... okk lahh will miss them.. you all must come back hor!! (: i think... i had felt something i shouldn't feel..it just does not feel...right. you know? it's not supposed to, anyway. but i'm not telling wat. =P LoL. i can't... cos i might just end upp dead. yucks. yesterday had oral.. sucks erh. i don't have anything to say.. and mr foo kept on laughing, and i was like, wat. my face very funny meh?? 'heng'!!

hmmm. was just telling pple that my IQ MUST be a pathetic 75 only.. (the minimum required for normal IQ) cos i really feel idiotic. i mean, i DID study for the physics test today... it's a retest even. i don't know what the hell i'm doing. as in the show " It Started With A Kiss" if i were Xiang Qin i wouldn't mind being a 75... really. if i met a guy who's rich and handsome and with IQ 200. but, nope. Dara says... i only meet those who are 175cm tall and 200kg. okk whatever THAT means.

WO XI HUAN NII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

let's all hope and pray that the thing is not for real... please.

2006-04-18T17:06:00.000+08:00

i don't know what has gotten into me lately. is singing on the bus when i am bored counted normal? well. i got trapped, like, forever at the bus-stop today, waiting for the rain to stop. i might as well ran home cos i had gotten wet eventually anyway. so what's the diff? mr pu stopped me after school today annd told me i had done my heat capacity hmk BADLY. well that sucks cos i had really done it on my own, i did not copy!*grumble grumble* okk lahh sho i stupid lor, get all wrong... ewen likes to sing and mutter under her breath and recently dara has gotten way too...imaginative. look, all the influnces around us. must be. haiz. all these are e major highlights of my day. but i am happy, really. feel like falling in love! forgot that feeling long loong ago! wahahahaha. we had a..i dunno? DREAMY ASSEMBLY TODAY? lolss. mr pig and mr duck. wow weeeeeeeeeee!

2006-04-13T19:12:00.000+08:00

it happened again, X2. sighh. plain stupidity~

2006-04-11T15:29:00.000+08:00

i should never have looked forward to it. neither should i even THINK about it. when i thought things would go right, they never ever does. when i've just been successfully brave today, convinced that it is actually be alright to be alone and neutral, i don't even feel sad. i think maybe i'd just get used to it, i wouldn't mind, really. and when i thought could deal with no friends, no life and studies, this had had to happen to me. when i heard, i thought i'd died, really. why? again, again, and again. just yesterday, not so long ago, 8 hours ago. today, today. what the hell is wrong? can anybody tell me that? please? all that was left, were finished.

2006-03-31T18:12:00.000+08:00

i listened to wat she said. sigh, yet another person having a story that's sad. * i shall not reveal the person here to protect her privacy~!* XD yepp. why do pple fall in love? i know. cos we are humans, that's why. how sad. hmm person, i dunnoe how to phrase it here buteur maybe i shall tell you e next time we're together k. she asked me, why can't we be friends? i said no, because that is the past.
she said, why am i upset? because you like him, that's why.

am i the only one?

2006-03-28T18:21:00.000+08:00

life is miserable... why am i the only person to feel this way? i am sick of this... why are all these only a dream? why can't they ever be true? if they can never be true, why dream? if life is miserable, why live? to try to fulfill those dreams that can never be true? why only me? why be me? why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why?

if i am feeling alone, it's really truly pathetic that there is no one there...

no one seems to notice... that i am trying hard to be myself

i can hear the music crying

what if i am not the same anymore

cross_country day~!! 24th March 2006 =)

2006-03-24T16:36:00.000+08:00

went ferr x-crountry today...in e morning went to d's hse to "lombang" her dad's car... then went to fetch ewen... before heading to Macritchi,, we were there at 7! when the start of the run is supposedly at 7.40... but nbm. i remembered we waited and waited before it was our turn to run... the scenary was really nice yea. me and Brenda and Yu Loon ran first, but walked later, run,walk, run. arrrrgh. i noe i'm fat la k. cos i had stiches. yeah and the dirt track was YURKS. not going to elaborate on that...
the run ended soon enough and then we had the prize giving.. yayy our class boys gt alot get smth... :D the whole thing ended at 11.30am and we waited awhile for Pei ling, XinQi, Mei Ping, Gladys... Jia En, Gui Yen, Nuo Shi... before walking to e bustop to go tuhh Junction 8... was like searching the whole place for Pastamania... i was craving for pasta... some of us went Long John while some went there...saw the Four Clover Leaves keychain...it's supposed to give euu good luck i think. me and ns wann to buy one...but it's too ex. hai. 20++...and i was thinking, even if it doesn't give you good luck, it's actually nice for decoration really and everything. haha. then went walk walk larr. saw the voodoo doll keychain i think,,,loveed the orange angel one and the bigger sized red devil one!! i think almost all of us bought the monkey keychain yea. me and pl were obsessed wit the orangey thing i don't noe wadd. it's cute lor. hmm went to tale neoprints!! yaay.! hahaahs. it was really squeezy though. =) ohh well, at least i looked okk. hahax. oh. 37 degrees de shorts are nicee. LoL.
after taking the neos, ns say wann to take home scanned ferr us or sth. ns, i want moii neoprint!! after that, almost all of us were obsessed with taking photos... (started by pei ling and xin qi) played with our phone cameras... went upp and down the lift...LALALA~ we're NOT childish! =P Gladys ish God's Princess!! muahhaha. yup then we wanted to go home... Jia En, NS, dara and Gladys stayed to buy smth. and the rest of us took the MRT... there's this very cute baby girl on the train... she likes me!! and without me having to disturb her first before she smiled at me...( like how i usually did with the other cute kids i saw haha) she was biting on the MRT poles then she kissed me and bit me. wahaha. she likes to play swinging wif my voodoo doll!!! ((((: yar i took pictures of her... hahahahaha....
she went down first and then said bye bye to us all... haha. then later we all went home. (:

2006-03-23T18:13:00.000+08:00

today was the most horriblest day i had... i just told Brenda wat i felt today... she's so happy... she told me to be happy sho that pple around euu can be happy too... but if i were to act like i am... then... i would die of over-exhaustion... the other day at night i was sitting at the staircase..the usual place where we would be... you noe how movies are like? where memory flashbacks are like those very "artistic" music videos we see? yep, mine was like once. we were playing around and talking rubbish, i remembered once when we shouted across the street...don't think anybody still remembers bah...they just left, like one by one...i actually told brenda... she was too naive, not like me... and i messed up in cello today.. and i kept thinking, oh fuck. you're nothing but rubbish. i just fucked up the whole thing k

it takes two people to make up a lie,

the one who says it and the one who believes it

sometimes it's not that i don't want to ask, but was too afraid to know...

why lie? when everything is already the truth?

2006-03-15T12:18:00.000+08:00

all about you?

wo bu zai hen ni le...

sorry

i hate me

2006-03-12T11:24:00.000+08:00

haha.

extremely chocaletely caramel

sounds EXACTLY like the sort of thing you would see in the Willy Wonka Factory :D

as in, Roald Dahl's book, lol.

and...

I LIKE. :))))))

haahahs. haiish. :(

sometimes i wonder if you all would still think i was the same person all along. i mean, i do not think evil thooughts, no, byt mean. and when i'm upset or angry or whatever, i just don't say it out. or show. it does not show, anyway. scary. which. maybe i'm not me,, maybe everyone'll hate me cos i'm just this psychopath. not that it helps saying it out.i'm not as nice, or wat. or blur, or slow, or whatever. i'm just plain mean. just that pple don't noe. i did tell ns about this and she asked me wat mean thoughts i have, i just wasn't comfortable to tell it to her, not to any one.

2006-03-07T15:24:00.000+08:00

muted day no. 2

day no.2 muted

2nd muted dayy

the mute no.2 day

oh great,,

lemme jest

stay mute lah.

the mute girl.

---------------------muted--------------------------------------

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2006-02-28T17:52:00.001+08:00

just got back my cmt for chemistry today. i failed, okkays? oh sure, BIG SURPRISE. remind me why we are trying so hard to study again? uggh. i mean, what can i say? my life's rubbish now. and i mean it. in the past i seriously don't know why i was so depressed about my life last year. just bacause of somebody? which is stupid. currently is kl's rubbish life. i don't know. is it really because i am more prone to crying? i get very tired,, ok and stressed. (reminds me of Mr Pu) everyday everyday go school study, and study, and study. i don't know, do you all think that we are sort of drifting apart? or is that just me again? i got upset and called Nuo Shi yesterday. she analysed the whole situation to me but i know, or should i say, sense that she is also trying very very very hard to mingle into her life. everybody is. AAAAAAAAH. i hate sec 3 i hate sec threeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.........

WHY??

is that like, what? stupid right? Nuo Shi,,,,,,,

hmmm. you are wrong. they are SO NOT equal, i've thought it through last night, really.

Glaydys.... NS says you are the rational one, the clear-minded one, tell me how you did it please? i really need some one to tell me, what this is, how it will turn out to be, what would happen?

can you give me an answer after reading your God book? or... er... something? haha. HA-HA.

yes, i shall laugh.

2006-02-28T17:52:00.000+08:00

toot ahh!!

2006-02-24T18:04:00.000+08:00

HAI!! i think mayb i'm supposed to be upset lar. cos my math cmt i lost six marks due to carelessness!! i shall not declare my marks here for i think that it was not wat i shld get. i'm like, worried sick for my chem paper lor. not that i want to see the marks anyway. not seeing it forever of course would be the best, jest go thru the paper can liao. =( like THAT would ever happen?! hmmm. den there's this A math cmt AGAIN! next next week i guess. how come... say dun have den dun have lah... suddenly have.. very stupid lo.. anyhow... AIYA!! i'm not supposed to say this out here on blog, cos pple needs to have some secrets... lips sealed!! =X i like this pic, like seriously having ur lips sealed upp. :D and this. cos it really looks like you're laughing. haha. i'm single eyelid and double eyelids!! =________- eeeeeeeeeeeeew~~~~~!!!! yucks!!! NS, no offence arh. it's just me k. =P

he came back today!!

2006-02-23T17:55:00.000+08:00

just went for Pei ling's house to play ball? i play awhile only then ended upp talking to Gladys. urrgh, seems as if loads of pple failed badly for their Chem paper...( for those who already went thru the answers aniwae.) den liddat i wat? -100 marks? aaaahhh. :( i surely get a big big kosong de lorr. :((((( haiish. i dunno... i just got into a bad mood once i reached home... very sianx ahh... oh what can i do~~~~????? sucks erh. i felt as if there were woolie stuffs stuffed into my brains. feeling fuzzy.... wuzzy.

he came back today. :D

2006-02-20T21:17:00.000+08:00

frrrrrrrrrrrrrrraeking hell!! how long had i been at blogging?? >< " arrrrgh. i had not updated for a gazillion years. let's make a list again! (ohh wow...!! woow!! WOW. :D )

reasons why i'm upset

1) the mvs i'd seen lately
2) in which all those pple dying
3) i'd fail my chemistry....

4) i'd fail my math....

5) i'd fail my physics.... TERRIBLY. fcuk?

6) wat nuo shi said today

7) i finaly noe wat it means to come to school to study, and i seriously DO NOT like it

8) i protest!!

9) i just wanna be crazy again...

10) i hate to say this but...

11) ithinkireallymisshim

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

RAW EMOTIONS~~~~!!

rrrrrrrrip me

2006-02-08T17:50:00.000+08:00

die die die!! die le lah!! i still blur abt balancing equations and the method no three for factorisation of cubic expressions, and it's supposed to be the easier way out!! i only noe method two... the slow way... and then Physics... stoopid light refraction and reflection, haven't got a clue as to how to do the hmk Mr Pu set us too!! God, i am so dead. this Friday O level results coming... i'm so dead. hope he does well anyway

whatever

2006-02-07T18:56:00.000+08:00

i just chucked out my old diary yesterday... finally... haha... i read all of my entries for the past three years and then finally tore them and said goodbye. kiss goodbye. wahaha

2006-02-02T18:05:00.000+08:00

i'd die i tell you. so much hmk lah... I HATE TUITION. oh and Gracia said i looked like Nuo Shi and erm some one else said i was Gui Yen!! muahaha. *gives revolted look* of course not. they're skinner. :D

2006-02-01T17:59:00.000+08:00

ahh the joy. Jay sings. in cantonese. and i still can't figure out wat he talking, singing. buteur still nice lar. muahaha. he's singing chen xiao chun's song... blah. today...i liked nuo shi's dream... i oso want leh!! i also want to dream!! teehee. hmm i watched i not stupid too le. (: haha. very funny the show. but sho sad in the end lah. i think. hmm again cos i missed tennis last week, yesh. ahhaahaa.

kill me

2006-01-25T18:15:00.000+08:00

i can't believe it. i would sho much like to clamp my hands over my ears and ask them to shut upp. but how? i was like willing myself not to cry and i can't. i hate my face getting all blotchy. esp not with pple looking.... i know i am stupid lah. can? satisfied? i really dun want to hear anything else... and it's during times like these i see memories, memories i don't want to remember, appearing in a mind's eye and lingering and would not go away... then they evaporate and left my hands and legs cold with all the thinking. i wouldn't let any one near me, i was scared to let them know me, know, all the name of face, i hate pple knowing the pathetic life i had, that they would get irritated with all these posts. sometimes i can't help but think, do i even have a true friend? i only have me. there might be things my friends would never tell me, and so would i, as in, i would do the same too. and as sat here, i **************************

such an idiot... sighh...

2006-01-23T20:59:00.000+08:00

sometimes i feel stupid... like wat this is another depressing post of mine... such a long long time since i was this depressed... okk sho mayb i dun look or sound like i am.. but...i dunno... the walk frm CO to the 176 bustop cheered me upp... a little... i'm not joking when i say i am boring and dull, but many many pple just gimme the look that was like hahaha stop joking... hmmm... since when do pple take me seriously? like, okay mayb not since when but like.. very little lahh. haiya... swing tra lala~ laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. and i dreamt yesterday there were all the fur all over my face and i had to shave it. yucks yucks

Jap jap jap!!

2006-01-16T19:42:00.000+08:00

i can't believe this. all the Japanese gurls are all soooooooooooo very @!*&^%$#@-+ pretty pretty pretty lahh!! arrgh. i can't stand the humiliation. ohh and there's this cute guy. wahahhahahha. pple all keep taking photos of him... i think he very bu shuang lerr lahh. haha. hahaha and i said to Erina that you very kawaii nehz. teehehehhhehehe. but really wat. sho cute. laaaaaaaaaaaa. (x but i think Rio has the prettiest eyes. see! i remember their names!!! *truimph music* yepp. and i performed today. i think... ish okk bahh. hmmm mayb. and so... yeah... we had a nicee day wit the Sagano High pple. haha annd i just realised i would like to fly to Japan larr. have a plastic surgery and become like Ayumi!! whoots~ imagine that.

2006-01-09T17:56:00.000+08:00

school is boring, get it? i still can barely understand the A maths taught in class. and i know i'd fail Physics terribly. i'm getting bored wit the music pieces we are getting for cello. can't we learn to play something nice like Canon In D? i'm gonna ask Fang Ming to teach me larr. i'm getting bored with my class. mayb i'm the one who's boring. okk i noe like my class now ish okkay...really really. but it's jest not the same.. and then me and Nabilah were like talking abt how nicee our class noticeboard was last year in 2e1 cos we are making one for 3e4 now. and we loved the horoscopes thingy!! Nuo Shi lahh the astronomy freak. wahahahas. i loved it too... anyway, i started missing 2e1.. Nabilah asked if i missed 2e1... hai... wat could i say? got lockers today.. very high.. and it dosen't help that now our books were uber heavy.. hmmm wat else... oh yeah. we dunno how come never go Lit class. a bunch of gals and me and Dara thought that the class was in MT2, as said in the timetable.. we had no idea how come the rest of the class ended upp in computer lab... and we just in MT2. muahaha. WAH!!!!!!! sorely tempted to write in our English essay assigned to us today... about the many negative thoughts about myself... but judging the teacher... haiz.. forget about it. and... JIA EN IS SHO CHIO LAH!!! hahahahahha. found out in Chinese class today.. (((((:

ever felt like weirdo?

2006-01-07T10:43:00.000+08:00

mayb that's why i had came upp wit the idea that i was a cod, a fish. who was i kidding? it was obviously apparent that i was just this weird freak who can't handle herself. i know i felt like crying but at the same time i was also happy. i am so afraid. it just dawn to me that if i was going to have a heart attack everytime like this then i would be having this pre-mature ageing thingy. and then i would be all bald and old and wrinkly and soon all my hair would drop and i would need crutches and all and i'd have those old pple spots or whatever those are called. i shld just keep my mouth shut and write all this insane thoughts somewhere else. because it would just be wasting the people's time who come to my blog and read these. typing all this stuffies down. i hate heart atttacks. i've always drone on and on abt becoming some other pple. rich and pretty and happy. but then i'd think abt those pple who are still waiting for pple like Mother Teresa and Princess Diana and the twelve year old boy to help them i would feel so bad. (yes i was a teeny interested with the stuffs these pple did) heart attacks, who needs them? gibberesh. nono. kl-esh. that's wat it is. arrgh, somebody slap me please.

first day

2006-01-03T15:05:00.000+08:00

so the first day of school started off quite peacefully, i think. and when i mean peaceful, i mean that to the extent that it is B-O-R-I-N-G. i din talk to a single soul except for Dara and Nabilah and mayb i mumbled something to Miss Teng. ohh and Amanda and Sodi. so err that's abt it i guess. i don't know whether we'll be a class. you think so? hmmm. i've met some of our teachers and they're okk. we still met upp. the usual clique see. everybody does. for the next two years? how? annd ohh. i've just realised my Ferrero Rocher looks like an awfully deformed meteorite or rock or something. but isn't a meteorite or rock supposed to be huge? well. get me out of here please

i'm boreeeeed

2005-12-21T17:30:00.000+08:00

i've decided that i'd gotten tired and getting frustrated of thinking upp another story that involves the fish and the heron. i'm boreeeeed... sighh...

A LETTER FROM YOU TO THE FISH

2005-12-20T11:44:00.000+08:00

Dear The Fish,

it's great that you are a fish because i am a heron of the kind that flies around the sky and then swoops down the ocean and screws your brain out. you thought i was going to say i was the kind of heron that swoops down and eat you, didn't you? i was, but i thought that would be offensive. my mother is a food processor and my father is a wall-mounted clothes drier. i have a kid brother, too, but i don't know what kind of appliance he is yet, he's too small. you're freak, you know that?

Ciao0!
Signed, Me.

bubbling

2005-12-19T18:53:00.000+08:00

Dear you,
i am a fish. you wouldn't think so to look at me, what with the uniform, and the hair on top of my head and all that? but yes, it's true, i'm a fish. i'm not sure what type, but i THINK i may be a cod. what are you? and there's my evil twin sister, her name is Yal Nook. of course, she's supposed to be a genius and has a hot bod, and far much sexier than me. but then again, she won't be my twin anymore, would she? and then again, there are probably no such things as a hot nor sexy fish. hmmms. mayb not. ohh and i have a pin ball machine. my only inspiration is to turn into a pin ball machine and live in a pinball parlour rather than a stupid, boring fish, and dye my hair purple. hurr hurr.

singed, The Fish

startrekked

2005-12-16T11:06:00.000+08:00

there seemed about a million gazillion years since i updated... upon pei ling's request, i've decided to squeeze something in here. haha. i am responsible ferr her de ren!! hurr hurr. this is boring. geez.... lalalalalalalalalalala... mayb i would imagine i have an invisible frewn, or an evil twin, like xiaxue. then i can play with her. it's getting incresingly boring sho i've decided to watch my sister and brother play neopets, i don't have an account and they are constantly pestering me to get one of my own, so that i can stop playing their games. but no, i did not. i do not want my pets to die when i've gotten tired of them. muahaha. my brother is now beside me reading this post. since it's getting rather irritating you see, and to get him to bug off ish to get him to play neopets, i've decided to surrender. duh.! this ish such a pointless entry ((((:

talk about it

2005-12-09T10:10:00.000+08:00

Hong Kong was okkay larr...

5th Dec 2005

was taking off to HK... reached there in e afternoon abt 4++ and then walked around... blaahs. pretty much ohh boring...

6th Dec 2005

i went to Disneyland!! okkays why am i sounding as if i am so enthu? cos i am not.. i was at first cos i saw e trip in which Wilber went budden it was actually sort of disappointing... cos the rides were very much normal and all... there were some uber rude pple and we spent about 1/3 of our time there Q-ing upp...duhh. i shld have expected it anyways. aahh well. but there was a cute baby frm Taiwan that said i was gor gor. hahaas. guess i probably didn't portray such a feminine image lehh. haha LoL. although the best part all in all was when at night they started blowing all those fake snow and the FIREWORKS!!! and it was soooo nicee can... sighh...

7th Dec 2005

oh ho we went on the shopping trip at whereever we can find... City Plaza? Sogo? but all that the stores that were selling were winter clothes... tsk tsk. we SHLD habb gone in the summer... and i swear i would kill to have those gorgeous boots if S'pore have the four seasons...but obviously, nopex. blaa blaah. still managed to grab some stuff though. was tempted to buy the winter clothes instead. and i did, only a little. and i am so not crazy to have bought them, they were very very cute. youu see. too cute. hahaas. oh ohh.

8th Dec 2005

yepps i went came back yesterday... and i saw Stephanie Sun okkays. at the HK airport. it was pretty obvious lahh. even with her shades on...all cos of her red hair. and then she disappeared into the Hermes shoppe after i caught a glimspe of her. hurr hurr. with some other two or three pple. had a nagging suspicion she took the same plane with mii. but never mind. watched Initial D all over on the plane. Edison! Shawn! Jay! muahahahaha... plane food sucks. errks. hahaah.

i'm back!!

2005-12-01T10:24:00.000+08:00

guess wat? WHY i didn't update? cos my dad put in the pass word... i broke it once, and i broke it yet again!! WHOOTS~ muahahahaha.... aniwae, yea. sho long never update lerr horrs?? um...i rmb that i saw triangle!! yayy yayy!! but nvm. since he cut his hair anyway. it's the worst. i dunno when to start frm le lahh, forget everything liaos. i wanna watch Memoirs of a Geisha!! err, Geisha is a Japanese prostitute, from the olden days or something, but i think i pronounced Geisha wrongly. dunno wat. ohh yesyes.

so yeah...

2005-11-22T10:56:00.000+08:00

i just, um, watched harry potter yesterday? it was an okay show lahh... but they made dumbledore, scream. yes i saw it and f*** that director, dumbledore is supposed to be wise and kind and clever, the ideal grandfather you would want, ok so mayb i want, but still. and his beard is so short, not like in the book. i still preferred that guy who acted in the first series of HP movie, even if he passed away... sighh. and i remembered that his beard was longer? yesh. harry is becoming more "heroic" than ever, and ron's funny haha. cedric is cute,and neville. but like different cos cedric is hot-cute and neville's adorable-cute lol. hermione is becoming prettier, she shld act nonchalent and indifferent and play hard to get in front of victor krum, and not giddy and swoon all over him cos since the one she likes is ron, as in the book. Fleur is pretty yes but not so... magical as in the book, like a fairy or angel from heaven, as i would like to imagine her as. damn, they twisted the minor details!! minor it might be, i still dun like it. and i thought the Beauxbaton girls were...exaggerating. see the way they made their entrance to Hogwarts, never knew they did ballet or something. oh weeelll. *shrugs* movies are always limited. but i must say they did quite a nice job on the computer with the visions thing. i still prefer the books though, the imaginary characters, those in my own head haaha. like the Weasley twins, cos they are my favourite characters in my book. i loved their joke shop!! LOL.well okk byee now, i shall go and be my own director now. yesyes i shall. whee~ :D

really i dunch lala

2005-11-21T08:37:00.000+08:00

i don't suffer from insanity;

i enjoy every minute of it. :D

wat can i do

2005-11-17T20:43:00.000+08:00

i've been feeling... lousy. wat now? the results are coming...i noe i noe...wat's over is over, right? but i can't help it. it's just human. i've been thinking about it for the whole morning today and then going to co made me stop thinking abt it for awhile budden i started feeling lousy again and of course i started crying... my voice is really man and then i really can't say wat i want to say, to gracia and shu feng and brenda... i just can't. not that i dun wann... really. i messaged nuo shi cos since she called mii and wants to talk... i stayed moody ferr the rest of da zhu...but it isn't sho bad since i had yu hui's chocolates. it really cheers me up, alot. but yeah. was waiting for ns cos she is going to man shan aniwae sho was on the way and we took bus together and talked and talked.. i think i made her late cos she walked me home... sorry arh. and... wat if my new classmates hate me next year? wat if i am all alone and all my frens forget me? then how? i noe it's selffish but reeally, it's gonna be the terriblest thing that's gonna happen. it would. well well well. chalet's over, how i wish we can stay there for the rest of the holidays. excludind the lack of money and clothes and everything. if we could. even if it means my throat's gonna be that bad and the lack of sleep and a real bed, cos i noe that that would be the last time we would be together, yes. sigghh... i'm reallly, really pathetic.

i wanna be a guy!!

2005-11-10T14:14:00.000+08:00

look, i just found all these awesome clothes all in one magazine!! the fantastic CLEO!! i was at the doctor and was bored... i was like flipping thru all e FEMALE magazines but seriously? it's rubbish. but aniwae, yupss!! oh my god. can youu believe... but then... all these clothes too mature... but mature clothes are for mature pple with mature taste.. i shall buy them cos me i am MATURE. i would act like i'm seventeen teehee. LOL. i'm crazy.. but still. when can i buy clothes liddat... sighh... hahaas. and there's this hot blogger recently that makes me want to be a guy and go jio her, since i'm being unsuccessful for a girl. i'd be shuai and man sho that she would want me. hahaas. *drools all over the keyboard* HAHAHAHAHAHAR. I AM BEING CRAZY!!!! but she's still hot. they sayy she's a combination between fiona xie and viviah hsu. how sweet. i want to be a manly guy with a cute girlfriend. :DDDDDD ......................... ohh....... this ish such a crappy blog entry. =PPP

i'm happy

2005-11-07T12:29:00.000+08:00

just came back from co camp yesterday... it was fun kayys. :D i met alot of new pple... and they were nice...and heyy, i'm lucky. i got to see how shu feng sleep. that's wat she tells mii. yep. although the floor is like freezing cold at night with sleeping bag and with all the fans off, i thank god cos if i'm unlucky, i might just turn into frosty the snowman.. hehe. and so... the 2nd night we sneaked off to the boys' dorm, after running away from mr seah, to party. but they were all asleep, like pigs. sho... we went back to our own room to play card games... shu feng helped me wit e fortune-telling. but sighh, sometimes i harbour a secret dream of becoming one of those pro cellists one day, like those i see in concerts and everything, but, like, nobody's gonna believe me anyways. no, heck. soooo... i mean, those pple are sho cool right? and of course i lurve my own cello. even if it goes haywire everytime. mmm. i can't believe i was blindfolded so many times... i almost fell asleep in e darkness. but aniwae, yea. the feeling of performing was nicee, even though i was super nervous and i can barely feel my fingers. i look upp to the soloists who played. and yes, i lost another kg. teehee. i shall be hou pei chen!! da jiao hao.. huan ying lai dai yu le @ yai zhou... harhar.

shut upp!!

2005-11-02T12:37:00.000+08:00

DECLARATION BY MII

Dear Diary,

i promise euu that i'll abide by all rules and not write in you about the following, just in case you found me too naggy and an ancient grandmother. i shall not elaborate on:

1) how i miss 2e1
2) how i got all emotional and depressed all cause of Jay's new songs
3) how stupid i am
4) how fat i am
5) and how worried i am about next year
6) blaah blaah blaah, etc etc.

someone says i'm very sunshine. lala and it's e first time kayys. i'm a sunshine gurl.! yes yes i am :D

i missed it

2005-10-31T14:07:00.000+08:00

it's only the first day of the holidays but i'm already missing 2e1...sighh... cos it's like, i would rather we have our hols two weeks later like the primary schools kids just so that we can have more time to be together...it's just not fair, how come humans always treasure wat we can't have after losing them? but honestly, i dun remember crying during p6. yeah okk so that's not true, but i'm not crying cos 6F is splitting, it's cos of something else...very stupid. but i noe, if i were to get wat i wanted two years ago, i wouldn't get wat i have now, the class that rawks so much... (: thus, i think i would like to thank all of the pple in bbss 2e1 05... to Pei ling, thank you for taming me and being responsible, haha. ewen for being so nice and sweet, xin qi for being the sweetest by making the cds for us... mei ping cos i just love you, and cos you trust me... gladys for having those once in awhile heart to heart talk, and being caring and the wonderfullest chairperson, and for "raping" me... and ns for being seow wit me and always encouraging me and the lengthy phone calls and telling me that i'm pretty, and always telling and telling me to have lots of confidence... and d, i dun need to say it all here, cos i think you noe wat i want to say, for being the bestest friend... the wife of edison... and lee hom and daniel wu... :D and of course to all e other peeps of 2e1 05... just cos i love you all alot alot... remember 2e1, okkays?

happy? sad?

2005-10-28T22:13:00.000+08:00

just came back from Glenn's BBQ party... okkay it's...ok lorr... but Dara and Nuo Shi came... i was really ok lahh touched lah, cos i noe how sianx it can be wit pple you dunno... but they still came! haha. there were too little pple to do anything and all so we just sat around and talked, i din even really eat. i had wanted to prove that i was a da ren lerr so i drank two cups of alchohol in one go, but i still didn't get drunk.. lolss. and...yea.. he din come lahh... so, should i be disappointed or relieved? i think ish 50 50 bahz... haiish i'm sho ma fan... hahaahs... yeah but i did saw hi, half-naked...it's not a very big deal i noe but i just shocked diao lahh... den i stare at him he stare at me( ok i was the one who looked away first...) and i thought i saw something... or mayb it's just his two patches of pimples?! LOL. so, yeah haha. hai i'm super guilty... i pulled nuo shi into the pool and then her handphone spoil because of mii... but i thought she took it out earlier lerr cos before that she already said she wanted to jump in le so.... aye aye!! i gave her my extra tee that i brought along cos i thought i might need it, just in case, cos we were talking about dunking Xian Wen in there before that... but he sore eye lahh soooo.... haha. SORRY NUO SHI!! sorry sorry sorry!!! hai it's all my fault again... and i dunno...i almost cried again just now... all because i have low self-esteem... i dunno wat's my problem but it's definetely not cos i dun trust my friends... how could i? but i still think that way.... haiiiiiiii..... =( yeah amd mayb it's sort of great that he din come, or he'd see my seow diao side... which i dun wann, but ya if he did come mayb i wouldn't even dare to do anything and sit there like an idiot... so yah. and so wat if he din come? like it could do anything and make us friends? yepp so... so wat if i was a little disappointed? lalala... we are splitting... everyone cried...i just couldn't help it...and it was really ugly i noe... sighh... i could see my next year self le... quiet and stupid, all alone, all by herself...

sentosa!!

2005-10-27T16:35:00.000+08:00

went to sentosa today, um, literally, it's siloso beach.. lohaha... i loved the sea, the beautiful sea waves..but not the sand.lol...it's such a pity there weren't any seashells... =( i walked along the coastlines and went to the i dunno wat but we got a nice view of the sea there... Gladys was very depressed.. i tried to cheer her upp but i still failed... i dunno waad to say actually cos i dun really think i understand wat's she's going thru... hers is, uhm, a complicated case... they were playing volleyball but i did not, yarr, hehe. hahaha... the salt water was very salty, yucks. i din go down the water, i don't know why, it's weird. hahaahs. we spent lots of time there before going to harbourfront... i had a crave for pasta and so... yea... ohh. i forgot to mention that there was a super cute bikini selling @ sentosa... sooo nice, but i can't wear it, i believe in perfection, and so, unless i have the perfect body, i'm not wearing it. LOLSS. .........but it's still very cute... hahas... well well well, we walked round the harbourfront for awhile and i regretted not bringing alot alot of money there cos my hands started to itch, they told me they just need to buy those slippers and earrings and S&K stuffs and the skirts and everything... lol... yea, but i was patheic, no money... after that me and mp and Qt and Glad and Vencia went home... mii and mp took the same bus and splitted wit the others... oh yah, before that we went to cheers and i saw e "vienna artist" look that Jay is gonna portray in his new album, even though i'm a fan, i must say it's super duper ugly, THAT HAIR!! OMG. grrrr.... aniwae, yupps. went home wit mp and we talked, and talked, during the whole bus journey... wahahahaha.hmmms, d and the others are going back to the beach, but it looks like it's gonna rain soon... hmmm. yada yada

i can't blaah.

2005-10-26T17:21:00.000+08:00

it's terrible. i can't even cry, i just sit there on my bed, nibbling on my chocolate and staring into space...thinking nothing. it's the worst, the worst feeling. it's like you are there watching your world crumble, right before your eyes and you can do nothing to save it. there are just too many things, i don't noe which to think first and which to not.. i dun feel like hearing those comments that are supposed to be comforting, it's not, not to me, at least. i'm so evil, i dun even cherish these comforts. but it just sounds more like sarcastic remarks to me. whatever, but i can't blame anybody, can i? they just dun understand, nobody understands... i am such a fake, i managed to have a split personality, in front of different pple, all in 24hrs! ain't i great? i should be like, err, wat? actress or something? but wat can i do? it's too bad that people dun like people like me, people who are not hyper and enthu and talkative and whatever. so the reason for me turn into another person, i just assumed. i loved the kl at school, i hate the real kl who is typing all these pointless and bo liao blog entries..the one who thinks negative thoughts can? the one who dunno how to be happy... but wat~can~i~do~ do i really seem that stupid? cos everyone seems to think so. *shrugs* dun ask me why, i just noe.

it's weird not seeing you around, but i think i'll get used to it eventually, like how i did last time.

haiz...

2005-10-25T18:29:00.000+08:00

two more days...

2nd Jan 2004

i came to school alone can? haha. i was upset and angry and whatever cos apparently all my pri school friends had got pretty good marks for their PSLE and went to RV and SCGS and BPGH and all and then i? i went to a "neighbourhood" school that wasn't even my third choice... (LOL. yah i was that lousy.... haahahs.) but aniwaei just came in as a stoopid sec 1... to tell the truth, i sort of even hated 2e1 at first.... but it wasn't that bad cos i think maybe on the first day i had friends? was a huge group of them but honestly speaking, the memory was quite vague... and life goes on... haha...

i had all the fun and entertainment(triangle and square etc. LOL!) and upsets and breakdowns all in 2e1... i remembered there was once...i was really upset... i had received comforts and everything... and all of my great friends were there to seow wit mii... it was like BWAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAHS. you noe? (:

2nd Jan 2005

i thought this year would go pretty slowly.. but i was wrong... just when we were getting closer and "drifted" away from each other to get to noe other peeps from other "cliques" we need to separate again... we had the most rowdy class i suppose, always not doing well academically as other classes.... but who cares? we were happy, and we stuck to our class. i noe we love each other... (right?) wat to do? when we split? it's not even cos i was scared to go into different classes from my friends, but that we are all.... splitted? sighh. can this be called cruel... i tried comfoting myself that it would be like wat happened in sec 1 and then everyone would just carry on lives as usual and it'd sort of be the same, like, bye-bye? but is it gonna be that simple? hmmms, mayb it still comes down to cos i'm an anti-social freak...

2005 -tatas-

sighh.

2005-10-23T13:30:00.000+08:00

sighh...i'm getting this very terrible flu and cough. dunno whether it will turn into fever...will it? blaahh. i had wanted to go with nuo shi they all to SPCA tomorrow... hope it'll be okkay...hmmms. i heard Selina's song in the Reaching For The Stars original soundtrack.... aahh so sad can... no wonder she cried during her mv... uhms and Jay's new song... Ye Qu...it's abt a relationship in which the gurl died and the guy describing his feelings of it... the lyrics described the whole song... in a...very very depressing way... sad... i thought it was ALOT better den Qi li Siang... alot. lolss. his album's coming out!!! but heard d say his album cover ish super ugly, e hairstyle dun suit him... lolss. hahaahs. aniwae... :D

1 week left.

hagagaga

2005-10-20T21:25:00.000+08:00

DAMN. i have terrible eyebags and eyerings. i look like a panda, i just realised, when i looked into the mirror. i din scream yea. aniwae, we did e hom thingy today..it was like blah, and i dun think anyone would even get started on it if miss dianah din come in.. sho many pple pon school lahh... den would need to start on our product tmr... sighh... hmmms. hope liang min would leave like wat i heard. i would save us all from agony to look at her sickening face.... ohh and we got the options form today... sighh again, wat am i gonna do?? mayb i think it'd be e2, den e1 and then e4... but i think it's practically gonna be a miracle if i ever get into my first choice... i would be very very happy to go to e1 even... blaaaahhh...

love

2005-10-17T19:30:00.000+08:00

what is the definetion of love? it's very very stupid, actually so stupid of me to dun wann him to go... i noe i noe, it's not a serious crush, he will still be going aniwae, you dun even noe him, ur so superficial! i noe. but wat can i do? it's not until today that i realised... i really like him. at first i thought it'll go away pretty fast, in fact everybody thought so, you noe, like for square and or lang. then later when it didn't go away, i realised how alike he is with ZL.... it's obviously not the looks, but the way he carries himself... so alike... i thought of him as a what you can call, substitute. it's worse until today, when i finally finally realised it's not cos he is alike ZL, or that he too is a Gemini... not the looks and not the way he carries himself.... i don't even noe wat... but so wat if now i noe? it's too late to do anything... it's two weeks to school closure and i'll not be seeing him, forever... and that's not the major part of the problem. i so much want him to be ZL's sub, so that when he leaves i can feel nothing. but it took me so long to realise that he is he, ZL is ZL. no matter how alike they can, how even their split personalities are so alike, how they diao pple are so alike, how they smile are so alike, how much the way they carry themselves are so alike, they are still two different people... i don't like it. i don't like the way i feel, the way i think. I DON'T EVEN NOE HIM, get it? i hate i hate i hate!!!!!! i hate cos i like him, i hate cos he's leaving, i hate cos i'll be seeing the guy who said i'm ugly and fat again, i hate A's friend, who keeps pint pointing at me... just wat's the problem with him? laughing at me behind my back? so wat if he thinks it's funny, so wat if he thinks too that it's funny cos i'm fat and ugly and i like his friend? SO WAT. i noe this is kind of childish that i think this way, but i can't help it. who likes pple to pint-point you at the back of you? it's not so bad if i don't noe, but i saw him pointing at me and giving that stupid face can?? it's freaking irritating. and gong dai... gong dai noes... blah blah blah. urrrgh, wat do i care?! i hate i hate i hate i hate!!!! i hate it when i'm upset like this, i hate it when my results sucks and our class is splitting!! i hate it when... i like a person

geeeeeeezz...

2005-10-15T19:17:00.001+08:00

Little Twin Stars are soooo cute!! i have always been fond of them but i became FONDER. okkayy wat kind of english is that..uhm...but yar... Kiki and Lala... i went to d's blog and found that website she recommended and guess wat else?! i love Cinnamonroll!! :D it's a kind of dog that's very, vey cute and it came from the clouds.. lol.... and of course i love his friends too.. esp Milk and another one but i forgot her name..but nvm. ahhahaha. sighh.... today... nuo shi keep on reminding me that we'll be splitting classes by the end of the year..i tried my very best not to think of it until today.... ns got so moody and that made ME moody too! aahh typical.... but aniwae, 2e1 isn't very "gum" with other classes... or should i say, friendly. that's wat i feel, and alot of pple too. it just dosen't feel right, having to get any of us splitted...ah well,but mayb it's just me? cos i'm just such an unsociable problem and practically everyone hates me cos i'm such an anti-sociable freak... yeah maybe.... that's why.... sad... i love 2e1 can...

geeeeeeezz...

2005-10-15T19:17:00.000+08:00

sleepy headed

2005-10-14T16:38:00.000+08:00

it's raining again! ahh, such a nice day to sleep in... mmm, which explains why i love rainy days!? lol. ah my god mei ping i'm so sorry...never get to celebrate ur birthday with you.. will it do if i declare my love for you?? I LOVE YOU~;* LOL. hahaas. aniwae, happy birthday!! ahhaha. humph, i had tuition? yea... and it was like... my cher made sec 3 and 4 sound so serious... mayb all teachers do?? haha. we had the photo frame design today.. mine was lousy. *pukes* um... me and pei ling were like talking abt where we cry at home and then gladys was like telling me something that i still dun understand... i'll ask nuo shi later. haahahs. yep.

rah rah rah

2005-10-12T21:38:00.000+08:00

soz... today..dara and nuo shi and jia en came to my house... den we went for e swimming... we swam little while lahh budden later we play tennis... it started raining after only half-an hour of playing, then it was like... err... so sian diao lorrs!! grrr. we went back to my house, order kfc and everything and then we just sat there... and then after eating everything and anything we sat down again and talk like dunno wat. teehee. talk and talk and talk... we ended upp laughing like maniacs. then sho fast one hour over le horr they went home... i went for tuition... we planed out the BBQ that would be held at Glenn's house. and we spent the rest of the time telling ghost stories... hehe. miss foo was so scared.. um... i wanted glenn not to invite the who lah. someone...but... i think..cannot bahz, cos they are like neighbours? and he invited the gurl that someone likes, erm, well, at least i think so, and that cyx and kxw knows it, and that would be the end of it. i can't dun go cos then they will obviously noe the reason so i must be very de da fang. yar yar. haha, but in truth i was actually abit reluctant... but aniwae we are gonna play... *drum rolls*...... HAI DAI QUAN!! oh yayy yayy. :D hohoho. yeps. lalala~ and yea. i love t.A.t.U, OOH I'M A LES. beware, all the girls!! hehhehheh. esp all the chio bus. LOL. oh, my julia! heehee. and NG NUO SHI, get this, you are NOT ugly can??

tell me...

2005-10-11T21:08:00.000+08:00

can anyone teach me... how to be happy...? i want to go upp a swing...

whenever

2005-10-10T16:50:00.000+08:00

came back from d's house.. i did nth... ok mayb cept changing e blogskin... they played mahjong, basketball and badminton. i'm left alone to rot...so... i decided to go home... i'd like to watch tv... and.... exams are finally finished... my art sucks... bla bla bla.... before going to d's house we went to bukit timah food centre to eat.. then we went to the playground, initially i was so psyched cos we wanted to swing on the swings... i swung for like a little while but i'm too heavy. ended upp with we played with the PAP kids, my juniors... cos they had just finished skool at that time...all of my juniors were soooooooo cute.... far more cuter than i was when i was their age.... i got to noe nicholas and audrey... i think they are the cutest. and nicole and crystal... but i forgot some of the other kids names... i even have audrey's pic in my hp.... i so totally forgot to take nicholas's pic... aahh. i fell in love with him... we played with them until all of them left... well mayb except audrey cos we really need to go... aniwae, we stopped by gladys's house for awhile den we go to dara's house.. yar... and after that... went home... i have no mood to do anything and everything...i think i'll jest rot myself at home for the two days holiday...i'm so tired... i'm a nuisance.... i think the only event that makes today not a very horrible day for me is that i actually got to play with the kids... i just want to swing on a swing and cry... ........at least, on a swing that will not creak and groan when i'm on it. sighh.

LOLS

2005-10-09T18:53:00.000+08:00

phew, just came back from my tennis class...i'm so tired...i think all the running we did today could cover up for like two PE lessons? and i'm not even kidding. sigh... all because of that, i practiclly wasted half a day's time there... and did not have the time to finish upp my art work..i still left colourings.. I HATE COLOURING. can't believe why i even had a few colouring books when i was younger... i think mayb that time i was too bored... and guess wat else???? my primary school teacher gave birth!!! i'm soooooo outdated, i'm so guilty... i don't even noe she was pregnant?! and when my pri skool fren told me i was like that *picture dropping mouth and ur eye balls popping out* you noe, like in cartoons? and so yeah... and it's a baby gurl some more!!! her's name arielle... haahaas... and my favourite disney character was ariel!! the Little Mermaid.. i think she's the chioest in all the disney princesses...haha. i dunno.. but i think her baby would be cute.... and she's called ARIELLE. i think it's a very very beautiful name.. yea.. hmmms. i'll be colouring now, bleahs. after my spaghetti. -tatas-

OH MYGOD

2005-10-08T17:14:00.000+08:00

i noe... i'm so... ugly. i just cut muhh stoopid hair. everybody says i'm so ugly. i look so gina. and i'm so ugly. again. whatever, like i don't know liddat.*rolls eyes* i NOE i'm ugly.i can't believe ns said i looked nicer. and... when will i reach that 48kg??!! sighh.... yeah. so fat right? can you believe that i'm actually HEAVIER than THAT?? and i... hate everything. i hate my art. hate hate hate!! Qiao ting ah Qiao ting.. if youu are reading this... why din you list in ur blog that you'd make me a happier person? when you become a witch...

ohh fuck. wat the hell ish this

colourlesss reality

2005-10-07T11:19:00.000+08:00

once there was a girl
who saw everything with bright colours
she sees chocolates
toblerone, kinder brueno and ferrero rocher
she sees sweets
lollipops cotton candy and caramal
i want more i want more,she said.
she's so happy, she thinks she has everything
she couldn't figure out what is wrong

but no, not now.
as soon as they came.
the nightmares, the devils
they say, hehhehheh i'm gonna come and get you.
they suceeded.
they got her
and that's the end of her
she's sinking deeper and deeper
she cannot stand it animore
and chose to ignore it
she started acting like there was no tomorrow,
like the double-faced freak
she don't noe who to trust
she can't trust herself no more
let alone others. she can't see her rainbow, the colourless reality
nor her candies
she can't feel.
she's gonna be a cold-blooded animal
she wants to run and hide
build a wall around her and protect herself
she hates herself
she only wants the stars and herself
where is all the colours,they all asked
it's fading
and soon nth would be left
she is always lying and pretending
she can't understand why she's such a hypocrite
she's selfish and demanding, self-centred and so blah.

tell me, why did you lie

you double-faced freak

sooo sweet...

2005-10-06T16:38:00.000+08:00

haiiiiiiiixx.... so.... exams are practicallly over... left wit home ed and art.... art. omg omg. haven started yet... =X hahaz... i'm so bored, and cramping the whole of that home ed tb, trying to stuff it into muhh brain... ooooh. i can't think of anything to post. anything interesting. yeah rite, like any of my posts are interesting... poof! sigh....

i'm the outcast. the only useless one who can't do anything right and lock myself upp in my room and listen to landy's songs. and i go around showing that stupid face and yet donch want to tell others wat the hell is wrong with me.... it's a no wonder that nobody could ever stand me like that.

rawrr

2005-10-05T12:32:00.000+08:00

rawr!!

i am sooooo....

freaking feaking upset!!

stoopid lit exam. they shld like finish the exam for mayb 2 hrs? instead of jest 1hr and 45mins.. that puny 15 mins can like save so so so many pple's lives!! according to most of my classmates, they couldn't finish the darn paper!! one question twenty five marks lehh!! and i'm fuming. cos e last question i noe de larhs and deen and den it's six marks!! i think i only managed to ans only three or four marks there?? or mayb even lesser. pathetic. i mean, yar i noe sum of my frewns left some questions blank... but still. and for the hawk poem i din even THINK carefully. like, really think think think and try to dig the meanings and ans from that poem. and i din. =( and that's wat mr sam told us. to think VERY carefullly. and i did. all becos of the hawk. stoopid hawk. i said it symbolises a king and alot aloty and???? somemore lehh!! URRGH. can. you. believe. it. ughhhhh. RAWR!!!!! i'm a leo!! i'm so totally cannot take defeat!! and i noe how to ans!! RAWRR RAWRR RAWRR!!!!!!

nobody.

2005-09-30T12:23:00.000+08:00

i thought i got over. i really thought i did.

i miss euu
i miss euu
i miss euu
i miss euu
i miss euu
i miss euu...

God, can anyone tell me why i'm so hopelessly stupid?

exam fever.

2005-09-27T16:55:00.000+08:00

exam fever. i'm finally finally back. you noe... i don't hate exams. but cept for mayb...hmmms. when i dunno how to do e paper bahx. but i hate the preparation period for exams more. dammit. cursed whoever it is long long time ago for inventing exams... sigh... the oral today.. i noe i didn't do as well as i would like to according to my expectations... but honestly speaking, the topic sort of kept me off-hand for awhile and i really, really dunno wat to say. but, well. i gave my best.... but still... HAIISH!! just hoped i did OK enough. *crosses fingers* blalallallallbababaalalala... blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......... muahahahhahaahahahsss.... looollllss. i'm listening to this "old" song.. chinese song.. okk mayb notch very old, lahs. but oso not recent... i sort of like it. the lyrics... aahhh my god. he's leaving after 'O' levels.. *pouts* i'll miss him? loolss. very funny...SIGGGHHH... and i'm sooooooo fat. blehhs.

!!!!!!!!!

2005-09-21T14:00:00.000+08:00

i can't believe how some pple can be sho ridicolously STOOPID when they come to stuffs like relationship. oh sure, they can like be so CLEVER in his studies but so thick in bgr. why dosen't he noe wat a gurl wants? obviously he noes something ish terribly wrong and yet, he does not even attempt to save it!! does he even care?! i mean, this is sort of my business cos it's my dear friend who gets hurt, and i can't bear to see her cry and it makes me feel like crying too and the exams are near and she used to be so happy and now!! becos of this!! she's so freaking depressed. and we cannot even help her. it's all the guy's fault. and he even said all those bloody stuffs to make her even MORE upset!!!!!! urrrrgh!!!! and there are all these pple who care abt her. and and. oh. BLAH. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hurrhurr

2005-09-19T14:38:00.000+08:00

hurrhurr. i think i'll start abt sat.

17th Sep, Sat 2005

had lit remedial... and we went to play bball. i'm sho lousy. i always walk. i keep on forgetting that it's bball and not captain's ball. and i dun like dribbling. blah. and so... we were on ration, had to share water and stuffs. went for tuition wit Nuo Shi... and later after tuition went for dinner... i think i managed to put on the calories i burnt after eating alot. lolss. that explains the half kg i gained when i weighed myself yesterday. sigh. and guess wat?! i watched Snow. Wolf . Lake. it's actually a famous Chinese musical... ermm.. a love story... and it's freaking nice!! it's so sad... i felt so upset for Yu Feng... and i'm still very influenced by the whole show. and they can sing so well!! Evonne Hsu and Jackie Cheung and Nadia Chan? hope i remembered her name correctly... aniwae, they were like singing, and dancing and acting?? wow they have so much...energy to spare...whereas their oxygen tank?! loolss.

18th Sep, Sun 2005

my eyes became incredibly small after the late night show.... cos i slept late.

Today

i told d and ns abt the Snow. Wolf. Lake story...and dara said i'm too naggy. hahax. i'm not. i just love the story very much!! Mr Nagulan din cum. and so did liang min. :D and so... at the end of science lesson i decided i want to go to the Alps!! to look at the flowers!! awwwwww..... but we din get to watch the whole of the video clip... hmmmms. and i dunno where the hell ish my eng compo. stoopid lar. glad sae she return to us liao but i din receive lehh...hope i donch need to write a new one.

this is.. the latest

2005-09-14T17:01:00.000+08:00

i am going to join Greenpeace! and save the dolphins! inspirations from today's science class. i'm not eating tuna fish animore. cos pple catch them and then their good frewn get caught too!! so, even though i love tunas, i must stop it. and you all and all the pple around the world must stop eating it too. then the tuna fish company would go bankrupt and they wouldn't catch tunas animore and the dolphin's good friend would be spared. so, oh yay! ok. wat rubbish am i talking. like the tuna fish company would go bankrupt. but still. and i'm going to save all the poor children!! hahaha. and the animals and spca!! oh yayay. i'm so enthu. (: wahaha. and i realise me and d make good dee jays. serious serious. cos we are so gifted! ask pei ling or ewen. they listened to our "performance" today. ahhahaha... so true. and i am hallucinating abt the chalet when exams din even start yet.. oh weell. i'll start studying. =P

wahahhaha...

2005-09-13T15:06:00.000+08:00

i think i need to post abt this guy, a waitress from pizza hut. I HAVE NEVER SEEN A WAITER SHO HIGH BEFORE NOE?! he was like saying all the welcome stuffies when we came in and so. the usual. but then he took his menu and started flipping thru it like he's never seen it b4 and was like, "the pizza page is here!! deng deng!!" and i was like, "um, i noe?" haha. and he went on to tell my dad abt he's amazing discovery. when the pizza came, he went like whispering beside ur ear, "the pizza here." i really mean whispering. annd. annnd. he would always cum by and say "enjoy ur meal" really loud. and many times. he was so funny you noe. he's practically not WALKING when serving food, he was JUMPING. okk mayb that's exaggerating. i think, hmmms. skipping. :D hahaha. and when we were finishing our food, he was like, "so the food nice enough? enough to eat? not enough come and order from me." i mean, he's not a sissy, but he's still very high. he can imitate the high perky voice very well. hmmms, or mayb, on second thought, he has that voice. ok i think not. =P he's only a few years older than us and doing part-time maybe. so. the moral of the story is, visit the pizza hut at bukit timah plaza. haha. omg. and i thought gong dai was a comic character. eh gong dai, la bee xiao xin beat you to it le la!! hahaz. hmmms. today. alot of free periods. =)

ooooooooohhhhh....

2005-09-09T10:42:00.000+08:00

ccccaaaaannnnn....aaannnyyybbbooodddyyy ttteellll mmmmiiiii wwwaaaaddd'sss ttthhee mmmeeeaaannnniinnnnggggg oooffff hhhooollliiiiddddaaaayyysss? waah. i type until very tired. stoopid lar. hehee. very sian lehh...can euu believe it. i din get to go out once! as in. any real outings. like shopping and movies. nopex!! i'm stuck at home doing the math. which, i haven finish. can anybody tell me wat's the meaning of hols? sigh... and school's gonna reopen soon...not that i really mind...okkays mayb for the fact that i can't sleep late....and hmk..anybody done their art le? i haven touch yet. haiz....haiz....HAIZ~ pathetic and pathetic. i'm here listening to the music on gladys's blog... waah. i think i want to do another list, but the thing is, i can't think of anything to list...any suggestions? wah. haha. no inspirations.... hmmms. i'm seeing stars...

one child

2005-09-07T11:25:00.000+08:00

The article in the newspaperwas tiny, considering the crime. It told of a six-year-old girl who had lured a local toddler from his yard, taken him into the nearby woodland, tied him to a tree and set fire to him.The boy, badly burned, was in a hospital. All that was said amounted to no more than a space filler below the comic strips on page six. I read it and, repulsed, I turned the page and went on.

Six weeks later, Ed, the special education director, phoned me. It was early January, the day we were returning from our Christmas break. " There's going to be a new girl in your class. Remember that little girl who set fire to the kid in November....?"

I was washing her when i first noticed her scars. They were small, round and numerous, especially along her upper arms and the insides of her lower arms. The scars were old and had long since healed, but I recognized them for what they were-the marks left when a lit cigarette was pressed against the skin.

" Does your dad do things that cause these?" I asked, trying to keep my voice as casual and conversational as possible.

"My pa, he wouldn't do that! He wouldn't hurt me bad," she replied, her tone prickly. "He loves me." I realized she knew what I was asking.

I nodded and lifted her out of the water to dry her. For several moments Sheila said nothing, but then she twisted around to look at me in the eye. "You know what my mama done, though?"

"No, what?"

She lifted up one leg and turned it for me to see. There, on the outer side just above the ankle, was a wide white scar about two inches long. "My mama, she push me out of the car and i fall down so's a rock cutted my leg up here. see?"

I bent forward and examined it.
" My pa, he loves me. He don't go leaving me on no roads. You ain't supposed to do that to little kids."

"No, you are not."

There was a moment's silence while i finished drying her and began to comb out her newly washed hair. Sheila grew pensieve. "My mama, she she take Jimmie and go the California. Jimmie, he be my brother and he be four, 'cept he only be two when my mama, she leave." A moment or two elapsed and Sheila examined her scar again. "In the beginning, my mama taked Jimmie and me, 'cept she got sick of me. So, she opened up the door and push me out and a rock cutted up my leg right here."

* adapted from The Tiger's Child, sequel to One Child. just a thought. loolsss

stardusts

2005-09-06T12:58:00.000+08:00

i love stardusts. haha. i very long never update le.. nth to say mah... ok mayb i'll start from yesterday... went to co.. i was waiting for the stupid 176 and poor Shu Feng was waiting for me and Gracia was waiting for Shu Feng.on the way there found out Gracia also like Wei Lian and Xin Hui! haha. and so...we were late for abt 10 mins and thought we need to do punishment or wad cos we must write down our names... we practised la and then during break we went down to "visit" Shi Qin at the d and t room cos she's doing her O levels exam thing. she gave us gummy bears and gummy worms!! i used to like gummy worms better but now i'm more fond of gummie bears cos i like biting their heads off. X) and so... we ate lots of the sweet and we also got takeaway some for Fang Ming and the bass pple. annd. annd. we saw Shi Qin's d and t project!! sooo cute!! the houses. she's making some houses. and there is also a bridge, and traffic lights. those aren't finished yet but the houses are. and that's very, very cute. miniature-sized and painted with orange and a red rooftop.

and coated with the malt candy-like substance. yeah. we booked them. she promised to make some for us. =) and i dunno why there were flowers growing out of the rooftop?? but that's wat makes it so cute. (: Jaqueline was like complaining to Shi Qin about a person she dun like...and later they engaged in the pinching game. i stood far far away and watched. teehee. they din manage to pinch me this time. =P we went upp for da zhu. the sec ones very ke lian. cos they are playing the hardest part for our bass+ cello solo piece. cos the cher wan them to make use of this chance to learn. jia you bahhs! hahaz. as if they'll read this. we finished co early later. and Shu Feng accompany me to go photocopy the Thailand form for Nuo Shi. Gracia went home early cos of her fever. hope she get well soon. and...there's this other guy from other skool who wants to jio her. haha. and she told me something...which, i donch believe. that childish girl. "hnng"!! haha. she waited bus with me and we are just being stupid. haha. and. and!! guess wat else. i found another or lang fan!! haha. and that's none other than our Miss Chai Shu Feng! haha.

yupz. i went home later.... today.... haiya, sianx like the other days sho far... went for dim sum... and.... no more.... dahhhhhh.

i love popcorns!

2005-08-31T16:56:00.000+08:00

today we had our teachers' day celebration... first up was letters from mars, um, partly from our class, i think. and it's performance was really cool. really. hahaz. annd. annd we screamed. lol. but i couldn't really hear wat the lead singer's singing, cos of technical problems. yah. but still. yayy!! haha. den other band also got perform... and santhiya danced. haha. i had looked forward to the drama play cos i only saw a little of it during their rehearsal on monday. budden all becos of TECHNICAL PROBLEMS, again, the show could only be shown for the first part. since the mic is practically making us deaf. then the handball game. haha. alot of teachers play foul leh! lol. and i saw i very frightening sight. he went to cut his hair! omg. no, he went to shave it. eek. cannot tahan.

lol...we went to give the teachers the teachers' day gift and went to mac. to eat ice-cream. haha. we talked abt bases. and...yah. walked back super fast den go on bus. Qiaoting they all playing some...hmmm. silly games. i got play a little @ first but later decided no i'm not playing annd listened to Wei Jian's mp3. all the way dara was sort of depressed over i dunno wat. i thought it wise not to ask her but i think i noe. or not. yeah. cheer up d, on whatever that is. but later at the cinema she got better. i kept stuffing myself with popcorn. heehee. and... the show is narrated in chinese! lol. the girl's voice for the singing part was nice... i want to live in a paradise...or something like that. i can't remember. i loved the baby penguins!!! soooo cute!! hahar. but one got eaten by the stupid bird?? alot of gurls were like screaming but it's so...cruel. and it's so cute can. even the mother, when eaten by the seal that time, also quite poor thing. =( haii...

the way penguin walks looks like a person. (not dara) haha. mayb he adores penguins. haha. but...something happened in the cinema... i dun think i like this girl, X, in our class very much. show us that stupid face when she herself was sort of mean too. hmph. another one, M, not our class, diaoed nuo shi in the toilet. i mean, i don't even noe she did that until nuo shi told me. and she dunno ns?! stupid lar. i thought it's bad enough that she laughed at ns when she was watching the drama rehearsal. she think she can act so well. like rehearsing it is very easy. wait till she can do it better den say. dunno go and anyhow laugh.

after the show went to seoul gardens. want to eat there one. but not enough money. sho we went to pastamania. saw mr sam, miss lim and miss dianah. haha. went to guardians cos meiping want to buy something there but dara wann go toilet so i accompanied her. and we saw yet another shocking sight. this auntie go toilet never close door one! i thought mayb she scared get locked inside or wad. but d say mayb she from china den china no door. but i thought, no cos give you door you dun wann to use meh? and pei ling say mayb she forgot. haha. went to billabong... and home..

* yesterday...the thing...it got me really depressed.it also sort of bothered me before but this is the first time i'm posting abt it... but d thought cos it cos of either zhi li or him. but nopex, not. and i am truly not lying.and suddenly it occured to me that, hey, am i the type who ONLY gets upset over guys? but the thing... i think i'll try to ignore it and stay happy. cos it's stupid to get upset.

i hate this title thing

2005-08-30T14:54:00.000+08:00

i noe i'm not as pretty, not as sweet, not as nice... i really noe... i donch even think that's the case...it's the thing wit charisma... i just felt like keeping my bloody mouth shut and smile and continue to be stupid and crazy...mayb i shouldn't even have had to noe this in the first place...but, heck, no, i can't continue being crazy wit this thing bothering me at the back of my head. and the trouble is, i can't say wat it is cos then i noe it'll do none of us any good. it's really pathetic. i don't noe why i'm even bothering to write this post cos no one will care and give a shit as they'll all think iit's just another stupid temper tantrum i'm throwing.

hai...

2005-08-29T21:24:00.000+08:00

today... co...let out at five...for the sec 2's...and we went out to watch the drama pple's play for teachers' day...haha... ok lo... i vaguely get the idea wat they are talking about...and...ya...i thought they did quite well...lol...at least, all the acting... it's quite pai seh actually...haha...i could never do that... mayb i would die...lolss... sigh... i saw zhi li just now...really..it's weird, seeing him again... and...i dun think he recognises me... lol.

cos i'm bored mahs. hehe

2005-08-26T16:48:00.000+08:00

ok.....

so.....

i think wat i'm going to write would be rather stupid...and bo liao...

but....

you can't blame me mahs...

i very bo liao lehhs...

the top-ten hottest guys

10. the guy who walked past our class today(haha)
9. jay chou(lol)
8. feng de lun
7. or lang!!!
6. chris evans
5. wilber pan
4. brad pitt?? aahh. mayb?
3. edison chen!!!
2. shawn yue!!!

and guess who the winner is?? deng deng deng!!!! guess guess guess!!!!

.....................................

......................................

1. PRINCE WILLIAM

BWAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAS.

teeheehee.

you can't blame me. i'm too bored. heex *smirks* but you would have to agree wit me, don't you? yea. apprantly, locking me at home is not such a good thing after all. harhar. and dara saw or lang today!!!!!!!!!?????????

arrrrrrrrrgh!!!!! OMG.

and. he walked past our class today thrice?? um. he must really really hate me. lolss

annd. annd. guess wat else?? chio bus really so do have priveilages. hai.

arrgh.

2005-08-25T12:37:00.000+08:00

waaah. just went to the x ray clinic. cos of my ankle. stoopid lar. i sprained it yesterday during pe and then after gladys helped me rub it the pain sort of just vanished. but after skool it started hurting again. by evening the whole thing was swollen like pig's leg. dun laugh. *scowls* it's painful okk. very. i put on some medicated oil. went to bed. the next day, which is today, i went to see the doctor. yar. later at 2.30 must go take report. my mum la, insisted that i take x ray... she say later the bone break or dislocate how. haiz.... i think i really really need to apologise... i almost made d go bookless today cos the locker key's with me. and i don't even remembered it until i called her last night. and she had to come like at 9 and take the key...sorry arh...oh and the music thing... i did the four bars lerr. but i din go and i'm supposed to bring the biscuit tin. sorry ewen, faiz, xin qi and jones. SORRY!!! sigh. the doctor gave me like two days mc... but i think i'm going to school tomorrow. or else our geog project... sorry mp!!! arrrrgh. later. go and see if it dislocated. i hate my ankle now, so fat like waad. blaahs

foreverfriends

cme project

HAHA

??

this SUX.

go away

this is crazy

held hands

EAST COAST!!

*pops bubbles* teehee

depressed

TADAA~~

first...time? (:

IKEA. MUAHAHA.

DARN

first love

wtf

love?

JUNE.

WO SHI ZHU

it started wit a kiss

totally complicated

=SECRET= SHHHH~~~~

HOW????

WO XI HUAN NI!!!

am i the only one?

cross_country day~!! 24th March 2006 =)

i hate me

toot ahh!!

he came back today!!

whatever

kill me

such an idiot... sighh...

Jap jap jap!!

ever felt like weirdo?

first day

i'm boreeeeed

A LETTER FROM YOU TO THE FISH

bubbling

startrekked

talk about it

i'm back!!

so yeah...

really i dunch lala

wat can i do

i wanna be a guy!!

i'm happy

shut upp!!

i missed it

happy? sad?

sentosa!!

i can't blaah.

haiz...

sighh.

hagagaga

love

geeeeeeezz...

geeeeeeezz...

sleepy headed

rah rah rah

tell me...

whenever

LOLS

OH MYGOD

colourlesss reality

sooo sweet...

rawrr

nobody.

exam fever.

!!!!!!!!!

hurrhurr

this is.. the latest

wahahhaha...

ooooooooohhhhh....

one child

stardusts

i love popcorns!

i hate this title thing

hai...

cos i'm bored mahs. hehe

pops bubbles teehee